Curhat Colongan

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY (Mamaaaa.. kangeeeeennnn… hiks…)

M is for the million things she gave me,
O means only that she’s growing old,
T is for the tears she shed to save me,
H is for her heart of purest gold;
E is for her eyes, with love-light shining,
R means right, and right she’ll always be,

Put them all together, they spell "MOTHER,"
A word that means the world to me.

Mom’s smiles can brighten any moment,
Mom’s hugs put joy in all our days,
Mom’s love will stay with us forever
and touch our lives in precious ways…

The values she has taught,
the care she has given,
and the wonderful love she has shown,
have enriched my life
in more ways that I can count.

I Love you Mom!

Music

-Walking After You-

Tonight I’m tangled in my blanket of clouds
Dreaming aloud
Things just won’t do without you, matter of fact
I’m on your back, I’m on your back, I’m on your back

If you walk out on me, I’m walking after you
If you walk out on me, I’m walking after you

If you’d accept surrender, I’ll give up some more
Weren’t you adored
I cannot be without you, matter of fact
I’m on your back, I’m on your back, I’m on your back

If you walk out on me, I’m walking after you
If you walk out on me, I’m walking after you

Another heart is cracked in two, I’m on your back

I cannot be without you, matter of fact
I’m on your back, I’m on your back, I’m on your back

If you walk out on me, I’m walking after you
If you walk out on me, I’m walking after you
If you walk out on me, I’m walking after you

(WALKING AFTER YOU – FOO FIGHTHER)

…. man… I don’t know why this song is always stuck in my head lately…
… over and over…

Seputar Kedodolan, tukar pikiran

BRUCE ALMIGHTY (Everything happens for a reason)

Kita harus bersyukur untuk setiap hal yang ada dan tetap menikmati hidup kita. Apapun yang terjadi, pasti Tuhan melakukan yang terbaik untuk kita”.

Kata-kata di atas itu keluar dari mulut seorang sahabat waktu gue dinner bareng ma dia di PS beberapa hari yang lalu. Waktu itu sih kalimat itu kedengeran basi, sampe semalem gue nonton (lagi) film BRUCE ALMIGHTY yang dimainin ma Jim Carrey and Jennifer Aniston. Dulu waktu pertama gue tonton, tuh film ya cuma sekedar lucu. Guesama sekali ga nangkep pesan di balik film itu.

Ceritanya sih simple. Cuma cerita tentang seorang news presenter & reporter untuk sebuah statiun TV, Bruce Nolan, yang kayak kebanyakan dari kita sering kali berharap hidupnya lebih baik, menyalahkan Tuhan atas kesialan dan hari buruk yang dia alamin. Suatu hari, Tuhan berniat ngasih Bruce pelajaran dengan turun ke bumi dalam wujud sebagai black people, and memberikan kepada Bruce semua tugas n kekuasaan-Nya. At the beginning sih Bruce seneng banget. Punya kekuatan Tuhan gitu loh. Dia pake lah buat bersenang-senang, kayak narik bulan biar lebih dekat dengan bumi buat sang pacar, bebas dari kemacetan di jalan jadi ga telat sampe kantor, sampe ngerjain rekan kerja sekaligus rival beratnya di kantor. Tapi ternyata, as a ALMIGHTY, Bruce punya tugas yang lebih berat ketimbang cuma having fun doang. Waktu Bruce sadar akan hal itu, dia mulai ngerasa kewalahan n frustasi. Bruce akhirnya mutusin untuk berdamai dengan Sang Pencipta and ngakuin segala kesalahan-kesalahannya. Dia bahkan bener-bener berserah kepada Tuhan untuk segala keinginan-keinginan dan hidupnya. And at the end of the story, Bruce bisa ngeraih sukses dalam hidupnya karena dia dapat menjadi seseorang dengan pribadi yang lebih baik dan lebih dekat dengan Tuhan.

You know what, for the first time in my life gue nonton film komedi sambil berkaca-kaca. Film itu rasanya kena banget ke gue. Bagian yang paling gue suka dari film itu adalah pada saat Bruce ketabrak dan rohnya melayang menemui Tuhan. Disaat itu lah dia bener-bener nyerahin hidupnya pada Tuhan.

Gue ngerasa Bruce Nolan itu kayak ngewakilin gue, yang some time ago pernah sempat protes and marah sama Tuhan karena gue ngerasa Tuhan ga adil ma gue, ga pernah ngewujudin keinginan-keinginan gue, and atas semua yang terjadi pada hidup gue waktu itu. Sampe akhirnya gue sadar, kalo apapun yang terjadi dalam hidup gue itu bukan berarti Tuhan ga sayang ma gue, tapi justru karena Tuhan sayang banget ma gue and hal-hal yang terjadi dalam hidup gue itulah yang terbaik buat gue. Gue cuma harus sabar and berusaha dengan maksimal.

Pernah denger kata-kata “Everything Happens For A Reason”? Ntah good or worse setiap hal yang terjadi dalam hidup kita pasti ada alasannya. Beberapa waktu belakang ini, gue belajar untuk percaya hal tersebut. Kadang-kadang susah juga sih… apalagi.. well… I’m a human being. Kecewa, marah, n ngerasa ga
puas dan ga terima ma kejadian yang menimpa gue, sering kali gue alamin. Udah merasa berserah pasrah ma Tuhan, tapi masih sengsara juga. Mau marah ga sih… hehehehehe… Suatu kali gue berpikir, kenapa sih gue cuma pengen Tuhan ngelakuin apa gue mau, tapi kenapa ga mulai dari ngelakuin apa yang Tuhan mau dari gue. Ternyata efeknya dasyat. Dan sejak saat itu sebisa mungkin gue ga ninggalin kewajiban-kewajiban gue yang udah ditetapkan ma Tuhan. Makin deket gue ma Tuhan, makin yakin gue kalo all I have to do is do my best, the rest is God business.

Sekarang gue percaya kalo everything happens for a reason, and with GOD, everything happens for a GOOD reason.

That’s a wrap!

Curhat Colongan, Music

EASIER TO RUN

It’s
easier to run
Replacing
this pain with something numb
It’s
so much easier to go
then face all this pain here all alone

Something
has been taken from deep inside of me
A
secret I’ve kept locked away no one could never see
Wounds
so deep they never show, they never go away
Like
moving pictures in my head, For years and years they’ve played

If
I could change I would
Take
back the pain I would
Retrace
every wrong move that I made I would
If I could Stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could Stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all the shame to the grave

It’s
easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
it’s so much easier to go
then face all this pain here all alone

Sometimes
I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn’t have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And
never moving forward so there would never be a past

If
I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could Stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame into the grave I would
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all the shame to the grave

Just
washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don’t feel misplaced
It’s so much simpler than change

It’s
easier to run
Replacing
this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Then face all this pain here all alone

It’s
easier to run

If
I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made

It’s
easier to go

If
I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could Stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all the shame
To the grave

(EASIER TO RUN – LINKIN’
PARK)

….Sometimes,…
it’s so much easier to run and hide…

… I
just wanna just run and hide…

trying to forget …
… already
tired for that, GOD …

Curhat Colongan, Seputar Kedodolan

First Day of Working

Huuaaahh… Back to REALITY setelah dua minggu gue rasa mimpi pulang mudik. It’s really really a good holiday. Ga dikejer-kejer deadline, klien yang bawel, diomelin sana sini… Aduh, tenang banget dech rasanya… Hari ini hari pertama masuk kerja lagi. Pagi-pagi si meneer klien gue itu udah telefon, nanya perkembangan kasus di Mabes Polri ma MA. Plisssss dech.. belum juga minal aidin wal faizin ma orang-orang kantor… Sayang ga bisa jutek, ntar kantor gue ga dapet kerjaan lagi.. hehehehe
Setelah kejadian yang ngenakin di kantor sepanjang ramadhan kemaren (yang bikin puasa gue kayaknya tinggal laper ma haus doang udah ga ada pahalanya lagi…), suasana kantor sekarang udah rada mendingan dech. Teteup seh tadi pas doi dateng sisa-sisa arogantnya masih ada… Yah, kita-kita cuma bisa ngedumel dalam hati ….*****FAKE!!!*****
Biar pun udah kayak gitu ga bakal mengundurkan niat gue untuk cabut dari kantor ini…
CAN’T STAND IT ANY LONGER!!!!!