Located in my brain is a jumble of thoughts, feelings, songs, words, emotions, smells, sights, and cravings. It’s full of wrongs and rights, happiness and hate. It’s full of me. This is how everyone’s brains are. And I tend to let that overflow onto this computer monitor by means of a keyboard and my fast-typing fingers.
Unfortunately, I think it makes my writing less pleasing to any stranger who happens to take a peak at my blog. I keep telling myself I write this for me, which is true, but at the same time I read these other thoughts of these amazingly talented writers, and I feel a little, tiny bit jealous.
I’m not saying that I’m going to change anything. Of course not. This is for my own enjoyment, and sometimes for my own sanity. It’s an online journal, basically. I just wish sometimes that I was more talented.
You (meaning the 2 or 3 wonderful people that read this) may have noticed that I changed my blog title. I’ve always hated my blog title (My life, or something comparable). I wasn’t exactly serious about this blog when I started it (OK, I’m still not that serious about it) and I sort of just put down the first thought that popped into my head.
So, for now… I’m in persuit of happiness. Which usually involves drama. Which is…. yup, you guessed it; Life.
So, when I hear someone sigh, “Life is hard”, I’m always tempted to ask, “Compared to what?” Just what exactly life means to us? I’m a firm believer that what you get out of life, depends on how you live it.
More than often, we start to question the meaning of life when we’ve been unhappy and depressed a good bit, or when we feel useless and worthless, or when something awful just happened to you or someone you care about and you don’t understand why bad things happen to good people.
Reality is in fact neither good nor bad; it can always be bent and twisted in many directions depending on your beliefs. Unfortunately, we often choose to see the negative side of things.
Happiness doesn’t depend on anything that has or has not happened in the past, nor does it depend on your future prospects. The simple fact is, in order to be happy; you must decide to be happy.
(inspired by a friend who keep complaining his life….
C’mon man… life is beautiful, why grumbling about the past…)
Chichi N. Utami 